My Life My Way !!

My slogan ? Hahaha !!!
This year 2014

from the day i born 1985 till 2014.
its already 29 years

in this short 29 years !!!
alot happening on my life ~

:) throughout the blog, we will realize.
im childish, foolish, stupid before that.

Hahahaha !!!

I have my fiancée and i still wondering
She is the ONE ? :)

Just realize, im working in Real Estate
Almost 8 years
Im still stuck at the middle income group

Whats happen to me ?
to be honest, im a Lazy person =P
I can survive till now, its because of LUCK.

This is my LIFE, thats why...
Im doing it my own WAY...

I had difficult life, but i do enjoy my life
My wish to travel around the world
and travel over the galaxy
My favourite planet is Saturn & Jupiter

But life cant stay as long as we wish.
I can feel that my Health is bad.

I wish i live until 3000 :)

Born To Be or A Lie

Yesterday is my worst day ever.

She said dont make her angry.
But
Im already angry & not her
Im not in mood & she pour oil on it.

I cant really accept people who lie
And
Only say "sorry" and enjoy their life
Like nothing happen.

I told her before, I hate people
Using or Cheat me.

When i recall back then.
She asked me to purchase white cloth.
Because she work in penang.
That boss ask for white cloth.
On that time or before.
She already accept him as boy friend.

Why cant she ask boy friend to do ?
Why me ?
Why she keep asking for air time transfer.
She said i top up and only sms with me.
She said believe or not. She dont care.
(Mean she not even care about my feeling)

But everytime, she dint even sms me. Only that i send her sms.

I cant even believe in her now.
Cant even trust her.

Like i say to Neko before.
I cant even trust, if you dint prove it.
But they never prove, mean they dint even care.
They dint even care, how im going to believe... That is truth ?

Are they born to be a cheater or liar ?

Someone...
Please help me
Please tell me

About My Star

I have my life with a Star that used to be Good 

I know her from last year.
When I have feeling with the Star ?
Its actually long ago, but she dint know..
(Maybe)

Im Happy that i know her. But Sad in the end.

(Sad Ending)

Because i feel like im being used/cheated by her.

because of this, I dint talk with her before.

Since February or March this year.

However, I tried to be friend with her back

Since July.
When that time, she already being chased

As my information, she accepted him in September.

(already suspected)

I dont care she rejected me, croz i can keep on trying.

The most problem is ..

She lie to me ... and not just once ..

Maybe she dint know about my feeling that being cheated

She dint know how many time i being cheated too.

(I dont know what she think)

Im really curious.. why she can accept a person

that she just know for short period?

and also curious.. why she accept that guy

The most curios is.. why she ask me do what.

I also done for her..

(this is the point that make me feel IM STUPID)

If i know u have bf, and i willing to do

without blaming ...

But, I DINT KNOW HE EXISTING.

Even if i know u already accepted him.

I wont do anything stupid.

its make me look idiot, as a 3rd party.

Recently,

I Just know, she every night talking with the boy.

everytime we meet, 

the boy know about it.

(im just dumb ass that dont know anything)

Yesterday she asked

"Can we still be friend"

Guys, tell me how to answer this question ?

Im question you back.
if a guy u like, he actually got gf.

will you be his friend ?

From Past To Present.

every girls that i met, its totally disappointed me.

But Honestly, i will waiting her reply & forgive her.

(am i stupid ?)

Anyway how, i think she will never choose me.

Who every you choose, Just good luck to you.

DONT LIE TO YOUR BF !!!
YOU WILL HAVE YOUR REVENGE !!!
(lolx .. im curse her ? haha)

Feel even pain, that saw her talk sweet with him
I will scare that I pain too much.
and just remove her in FB.

just wanna tell my star.

I REALLY SERIOUS ON YOU

Although i angry, but dont know why.
I still wish you changed.
be with me ...

Its hard to tell me, you truly sorry ? =(

People around me !!~

I have no friends in Penang.

Most of the friend, is intro by friend

But most of them probably dont want to know me.

Sad :(

I meet alot people in this year
But dint saw any good person or nice
Possible, the person already beside me

I dint know >.<
Hopefully, she show her self out.

I want to do many things.

But no people accompany.
I want movie, I want go cameron.

I want go taiwan, I want go korea.

Sometime, single is good.
But

Sometime, single is bad.

Maybe I wish something perfect,

Yet, havent show up

Come out, and let me be your perfect person
Dont hide it, Dont shy, Dont worry.
Im always keep my promises.
I say I do, U say I do too

^^

Boys Vs Girls

Boys Vs Girls

I just notice alot of things around facebook & friends

same people said, boys have "flower heart"

but as i know, both sex have it

WHY ??

Good Question ^^

1st answer is "option"

is alot option make them hard to choose & decide

sometime, they want all the option

most boy is like that, but i can tell you

girl too ~~

another answer is "desperate"

some girls or boys, they want to have gf/bf

they seeking for love for a long period

yet, they havent found one

its make them easily have feeling on someone

sometime, even fall in love with stranger

mean they just knew each another for couple days

What True Love ?
dont ask this silly question
most of them looking for true love & so am i
sometime, people fall in love with stranger

and they live together until the end of their life

sometime, people know each another

almost 10 years

when they start relationship

break in 1 year / 1 month / 1 week

What i suggest ?

Dont took too much time

Dont ever waste your time

i will took 3 ~ 6 months to observes

then get in relationship

i know i will spoil my life with wrong decision

but we cant see his/her true identity

if we dint get in the relationship

Once you in relationship ?
take another 3 ~ 6 months to observes

then only confirm your choices

I have friend, she is special to me

she dont want to take it

because she scare will lose it

I want her to take it, then lost it
its the way to grow stronger
BE STRONG

Although I admirer alot people
once a person become my soul mate
i will do my best to strengthen & tighten

our relationship

GOOD LUCK

CONFUSION OF LIFE

CONFUSION OF LIFE

What mean of it ??

It actually happen when you have too many option

yet you want to choose the best

might not 100% but 80% perfection

Girls & Boys

Vs

House & Vehicle

Girls Looking for Money vs Handsome vs Love
Boys Looking for Pretty Girl vs Love

Girls from ugly become pretty, they will never find low standard

Same goes with Guys

Definitely, they want perfection

For choosing to get a House or Vehicle

We have to depend on our budget & affordable

Ya, sometime people get beyond their budget.

But mostly, its only slightly higher

If the same theory for choosing our option

Its might not be way too confuse

What we want and what we needed

However, sometime we still need to

Analyze & understand the person before choosing

But some lie lay behide the wall

They will only show you, once they tired of hiding it

LOLX

I too, have my problem of choosing

Its because im planning for long-term

And hopefully forever

Not fooling around & playing around anymore

What I really need is Care, Love, Support

Of course our parent, friends gave that

I believe everyone is "funny/weird"

They prefer a partner to gave those need

WHY ???
easy question ~ only partner will be with you forever

MY PROBLEM OF CHOOSING

Pick too young, they might not serious on it

(puppy love ? lolx)

Pick too pretty, not SAFETY / not secure

(im using poor anti virus dude)

Pick too ugly, it will scare me in the dark

(i believe i will die of heart attack)

so, what left ? Average type ?
Most average type still waiting for prefect person

some occupied some lesbian some lady boss
sign* again ~~

No choice !!!
LOLX

GoD ... Bless me ...
I want to meet someone special :)

Do you hear me ?

Croz im really ready to give whatever i have

Full of Care, Love, Support

Whatever she need

Partly Success Partly Failure !!

Sooo its almost 5 mths .... But now i updating :)

Success ??? Its i manage to buy my dream car.. But, with risk ><
i earn 50k in 3mth, but i spend 10k in 1mth.
Shit~ i just dont know how to control it :(
Plus, recently quite lazy ....


My failure part is always love.
My parent ask me to wait until 2014
My sotong ask me to observe 1st

I admit, i love a girl.. I can dump everything for her.. Its very high risk and I still doing that.
Thats why, i will always banktrup.

我喜欢上了queenbays的女孩。但我知道，这样的女生不会看中我。何况，出来queensbay做工的女孩都给英俊潇洒的男孩给迷了。

没机会给我表达，没机会给我付出。
看得出她还是贪玩。可能才20吧。
我人生不能再为一个人而停留了。所以，只能支持和祝福她。希望能给他遇到更好的。Good Luck
如果她找我，我会第一时间到：）

anyway，下星期开始。我又要拼了。
希望明年有200千开chatime：）
听说上到300千了 : (
加油~

Dreaming To Be ~~

Its been awhile, i dint ever update my blog.
Now im laying in my car, outside of my house and update my blog.

Many thing happens, many thing in my thought. Hard to determine my own life and control my own fate.

Those few month, i succeed what i hardwork for but its not going as well as i think. Its suffer & totally out of control of my emotional.

I close cases, i booked my dream car. But what i lack of ? Is Love, Care... My partner, my soulmate..

My life is not complete yet. I havent have my own family yet.

I Pray hard, i really hope my wish will come through ASAP... XD

Bad Luck Whole Day Long !~~

Im in the Black of my Life.
Bad Bad Luck am having !~~

Recently lack of cash, but God keep let me spending !! This is my faith ? my destiny ? Why can have wealthy life ? Why i keep having money issue. Lack of cash Lack of everything.

I spending lot and lot, spending on every single person i care the most, i spending on my career. unfortunately i have no return. Just like investing in a dead market. No hope, nothing !!!

Im cant stop here and blame my faith, my destiny. I have to do something about it. I keep on getting up, whenever i falling. So, i cant give up now. I have to find the way out from maze, find the way out from darkness within me.

I know, we cant hope and wait for someone to guide you out. However, I will wish to have a slightly hope about it. Because, without guide-line. We might get lost, or ran in the wrong direction or path.

Even thou, I spend RM20k+, when we together. My car broken down, and spending more then RM600 to rescue and save my car. I Spending to get started on my career by getting a brand new netbook.

Whenever I seen my bank account balance, I will always running out of mood. Seeing the amount from RM45k drop below RM10k. From the beginning, I just worried that i cant get a house. Now ? I keep on worried, how do i get a house ?

I hope for a return from her, just an appreciate that what i have done to her. Given everything, my time, my life, my wealth to save her when she falling down the crack. I just want she being honest and sincere to me. That only thing i need from her.

Today 4.1.12 !!! I will start my build up things, development of my management database. I will start posting and marketing on Thursday or Friday !!

Wish me Luck, I need to get rid my Bad Luck & adsorb Good Luck !!!

New Year 2012

Today 1.1.2012
Which is the year that end of the world.

I When back Alor Setar at 11PM.
I fetch my sister back there, and i drop my car for my dad to repair. My car seem to be old, have to always when for check-up.
Car a Car, im not capable to maintain you already. Please be strong~

That night, i when back to Penang at 8PM. After that, i slept at 10PM

New Year 2012 ???

Nothing special XD